one lesson that i had learnt.
never get too closed with a guy u dont have a thing for.
it will make them misunderstand your good intention of becomin close friend.
that's what always happened to me.

it will always be like this.
first, u become friend. after that, u become hang out buddy.
but soon after that, they will hint to u that they had fallen for u.
not a good thing for certain friend.

and to those who know me, i can hardly say no to ppl when it comes to this kinda thing.
i juz dunno how to reject. i don wanna hurt the guy either.
1/2 pass 6 told me "juz be direct and say no"
it's easy to say that but i juz cant.
i dont have the courage to do so.
and i dont wanna lose a friend after sayin it, if u get what i mean.

furthermore, he had waited for one year.
one fuckin year!!
i dunno whether i should say that guy is stupid or too loyal.
but im just not into him.
to me, he is juz my friend.
a friend to talk to and hang out.
i want to be JUST A FRIEND!!!!


lets juz be friends...

anyway, i juz wanna wish YOU happy valentine's day.
even though i will not be the one to celebrate with u.
but i hope u can find someone better than me.
please dont wait for me anymore.
thank you very much!!

*i know i sounded cruel. but it's for his own good..
all i can do is to say sorry to him...


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